What Chris learnt about Love . -

These past months have been probably the most significant in my whole existence, I tasted life on my own, I made my own rules and perceived the world through my eyes and no one else's, and I was happy with my frame of mind. A couple of months of excesses in every aspect, both good and bad, but I had my share of the world and I was quite pleased with the way I handled its affairs. For the first time in my life, I felt the true me coming to life. That I had accomplished a thing or two and have made plenty of mistakes but as most valuable was what I learnt. I had the chance to meet people that not only showed me a totally different world than mine, besides I felt as a human being, for the first time ever in my life, I was being noticed, I was not invisible anymore and to some extent I was feeling like a celebrity. Disappointments, teardrops, pain, hope, success, falling and getting up, courage and some other indescribable feelings were part of my life in the past months. Did I cry? Plenty of times but I laughed many more, the process has been gradual as it didn’t dawn on me overnight. Still I gained enough courage to face my dreams blown away.

I reckon no one ever stops learning and growing up as well. I thought over the years that growing up meant reaching a specific momentum in everyone’s life, now it is very simple to me, we live, we learn, we grow up. To this point I’m not thrilled whatsoever and the change is not as painful as I thought it would be, I’d rather say that we all have got a specific momentum; we’re given the chance to look back in years and all of a sudden start a process in which we are heading to the adult life.

I am a young adult now, at least that's what my age range is called in statistics and market research polls. Nevertheless, the word "adult" hadn't sunk in yet. I had to say hi to what experts call "quarter life crisis," pretty much what happens during our early teens: we have grown up but not quite much so it's hard to tell what world we belong in. I started to look at the future, in the long run, rather than the future in the short term. I started to question my role in life, what my purpose was; I started to ask myself if I was really leading the life I wanted to, if I was on the right lane, if finally my childhood dreams had materialised.

Now I know that I can shape my life into whatever I want that adulthood can be whatever I want it to be.

Ears tuning: Sunshine in the rain
Bodies Without Organs
Longing for: Booze it up
Current frame of mind: Let’s get out of this country
Life probabilities: 85%