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Today I’m sad, I feel empty like there is a big hole inside my chest that anything can’t fill up, as there is nothing positive that might cheer me up but sad memories, shattered dreams and fake illusions.
The rain touches every string of emotions in my very weak body; it takes me to places I once been, tangible and vivid moments that still hurt.
My current frame of mind goes around two situations very different from one another but the same level of inner pain, this summer was the most wonderful/painful in every aspect of my entire life. I made my own rules and perceived the world through my eyes; I became more independent, braver & even stronger. My illusions & goals for what I worked hard went down in a moment, I was there lying on the grass crying, thinking of how unfortunate I was & how could that happened. As the days went by I sort of overcame the pain but at the end of day I went to pieces. To recall that place, the people, the way I felt, the level of self-esteem & everything it brought to my life is something so marvelous I cannot even start to describe. I miss those days in which my life was complete, the joy & happiness stayed in that place & aren’t coming back. I miss you all guys.
In the other hand is you Oscar, you may not even know what I feel for you, I’m sure I went too fast, you were scared & confused; It’s been longer than a year, I thought with time I would take you out of my heart but yet cannot do it, I thought I had forgotten you but isn’t it ironic the day I head back & saw you, I felt you were far from being a memory rather present time to me. Oscar if you only knew how much I love you, what you make me feel, what I would do just because of you, you’d be my everything & more but I’m probably far from reality, I will fight for you that I promise you.
The rain touches every string of emotions in my very weak body; it takes me to places I once been, tangible and vivid moments that still hurt.
My current frame of mind goes around two situations very different from one another but the same level of inner pain, this summer was the most wonderful/painful in every aspect of my entire life. I made my own rules and perceived the world through my eyes; I became more independent, braver & even stronger. My illusions & goals for what I worked hard went down in a moment, I was there lying on the grass crying, thinking of how unfortunate I was & how could that happened. As the days went by I sort of overcame the pain but at the end of day I went to pieces. To recall that place, the people, the way I felt, the level of self-esteem & everything it brought to my life is something so marvelous I cannot even start to describe. I miss those days in which my life was complete, the joy & happiness stayed in that place & aren’t coming back. I miss you all guys.
In the other hand is you Oscar, you may not even know what I feel for you, I’m sure I went too fast, you were scared & confused; It’s been longer than a year, I thought with time I would take you out of my heart but yet cannot do it, I thought I had forgotten you but isn’t it ironic the day I head back & saw you, I felt you were far from being a memory rather present time to me. Oscar if you only knew how much I love you, what you make me feel, what I would do just because of you, you’d be my everything & more but I’m probably far from reality, I will fight for you that I promise you.
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